Friday, October 21, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 29

At first I was going to try to reword this, but I can't. And shouldn't.

This journal entry, video, and verse have been essential to my thinking today as I muddle through my grief.

I was eight weeks Monday. This was the second baby that I miscarried.


I wish that word didn't imply that I failed to carry the baby.

It is also a true statement though to say that from now on I will miss carrying that child. I will miss for the future in a way that I may never forget.

Why are you sharing this so publicly if you don't want a response?

Well, honestly, I am sharing this so that the people who choose to read what I blog here know that no matter what I'm writing from my real life. Real life is painful and pain isn't tame. I want my friends to know that I am working through the pain in my life and more importantly I'm desperate to know more of Jesus through my life. And that is what I hope to share here. Whether it is through teaching a child to read, breaking bread with my neighbor, or walking through the valley of death, I want to see Jesus. I want to be like Him.

My challenge for the day? Well, to pray this prayer:

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