Friday, October 21, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 29

At first I was going to try to reword this, but I can't. And shouldn't.

This journal entry, video, and verse have been essential to my thinking today as I muddle through my grief.

I was eight weeks Monday. This was the second baby that I miscarried.


I wish that word didn't imply that I failed to carry the baby.

It is also a true statement though to say that from now on I will miss carrying that child. I will miss for the future in a way that I may never forget.

Why are you sharing this so publicly if you don't want a response?

Well, honestly, I am sharing this so that the people who choose to read what I blog here know that no matter what I'm writing from my real life. Real life is painful and pain isn't tame. I want my friends to know that I am working through the pain in my life and more importantly I'm desperate to know more of Jesus through my life. And that is what I hope to share here. Whether it is through teaching a child to read, breaking bread with my neighbor, or walking through the valley of death, I want to see Jesus. I want to be like Him.

My challenge for the day? Well, to pray this prayer:

Thursday, October 20, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 28

When the day has been long and dreary, my challenge: make something warm to fill the insides.

And then savor the smiles around the table.

Food for the body may warm for an hour, but food for the soul warms for eternity as the memory of the filling causes warmth to renew even on the coldest days.

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Wednesday, October 19, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 27

When life is painful and the day itself is a challenge: make something warm. Like these headbands. A focused mind on a practical task keeps my hands busy and my heart free to be poured out before the Lord.

Psalm 62:8
Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.

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Monday, October 17, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 25

Come By Here (With Ann Voskamp) from Shaun Groves on Vimeo.

As you probably noticed, I have been reading a lot by Ann Voskamp. This song really ministered to me, and as I face my challenges both self imposed and otherwise I hope to see God in each moment of my day. Thanksgiving in both the beautiful and ugly things in life.

Friday, October 14, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 22

"Set a strong guard about thy outward senses; these are Satan's landing places, especially the eye and the ear." -- William Gurnall

"All things are full of weariness; a man cannot utter it; the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing." Ecclesiastes 1:8 ESV

It's striking to me to remember how much my senses are assaulted by Satan. To protect my faith, purity, priorities, family, etc. I must be on the guard. What makes me weary? Trying to satisfy my eyes and fill my ears. Yet, to live life to the full I must constantly exercise self-control. Discernment. Discipline. A strong guard.

My challenge for today is to be tough. Saying no to the atmosphere of this world and to say Yes to Jesus Christ through prayer and the Holy Spirit's leading. Every activity, hour, attitude of my day is either a choice to let the world, Satan, and sin into my senses or a surrender to the Holy Spirit to control what is let in and how I respond to it. 

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 20

They lose their air. Fall to the ground. Taking a different shape.

I've been taking a different shape lately. Trying to adapt when I've lost my air. Steam. Drained.

What do you do when this is the status of your day and it's only noon?

Taking a different shape.
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Monday, October 10, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 18

Being lead by the Spirit doesn't always make sense at the moment. Some leading requires boldness and others require humility. Some require immediate action and others require patience or abstinence of action.

What does this have to do with a bathroom?


I was lead to clean it. And I mean no disrespect by talking about such a room with relation to obedience to the Spirit, but it's been the progress of my spiritual life lately to seek to listen constantly to what I am to do for Him. For today, it was this. Serve my family.

Right now. Stop what I was doing. On my knees. And worship the Lord for meeting me there as I obeyed.

I sang and scrubbed. It was beautiful.

{Here is a bonus for today: these printable scripture cards are attractive and practical!}
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Saturday, October 8, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 16

Rescued by clothes on the line.

Rescue from failure, even just the feeling of failure. The chores pile up, kids call to play, books pile on shelves, days committed before they even begin: responsibilities multiply when I'm not looking, and then when I least expect it - I'm rescued.

The clothes washed and on the line, floors swept, kids bathed, and I no longer feel like I'm defined by what was left undone. It was done for me. It was a gift.

The gratitude that burst forth from receiving fuels me to give in the same way.
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Friday, October 7, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 15

Pause. Reflect. Breathe. Receive.

We were on a walk to the library when we came upon a tree which was losing it's leaves readily.

We stopped. Watched. The fall. Seasons changing.

We took the time to reason why this season is called "fall." Hands raised to the highest branch, she waited with full faith to receive more from the obliging tree.

Pause. Reflect. Breathe. Receive.
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 13

Siblings. Sharing. Sinning. {Forgiving} Celebrating.

Celebrating the playing of a simple board game. The favorite color. The joy of taking turns. The pain of being bumped out of place & the hugs of forgiveness. The little minds processing what choices to make.

The moment when she told him "I love you" & he said it back {Ay yuve yu}.

Today's challenge was just to sit an enjoy. Don't be distracted from this eternal moment, stop thinking about dinner and dishes, and soak in the littleness of these two miracle kids.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 12

I've been learning a lot about true joy, thanksgiving, and grace as I read "One Thousand Gifts" and the sentence that has struck me the most lately is:

"Gratitude for the seemingly insignificant -a seed- this plants the giant miracle."

Choosing to be grateful is choosing to live. Choosing to say thanks is choosing to breathe life. Joy can only come to the living.

I love fully living because of what Jesus has done to my heart. Being the temple of the Holy Spirit is a wonderful miracle & I am grateful to be involved.

I love that in Acts 5:20 the angel tells the apostles to go and tell all the words of this full Life.

Full Life. He didn't say go do miracles or prove the consistency of scriptures prophecy (both of which they did as well) but he told them just go tell them about your Full Life.

Life. Gratitude. Joy. All & only because of Jesus.

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Monday, October 3, 2011

L3 Challenge Day 11


There are words that bring life.

There are words that bring death.

There are no neutral words.

Every time I open my mouth I have a choice to make.

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L3 Challenge Weekend Recap

I don't think it is random that I have been enjoying a lot of continuous themes lately. From what I'm learning in my personal study of the Word, prayer, BSF, and preaching on Sunday morning it seems that for weeks everything has been complimentary.

This weekend I was meditating on the Consuming Fire of God. There are so many verses that describe the Consuming Fire of God.

In Acts I just studied Pentecost and even wrote about the wind but there was also Tongues of Fire visible on each head. About 120 people were in the room where the Holy Spirit was poured out.

Fire. Tongues of Fire. Consuming Fire.

In my prayer journal (pictured above) the author has written on each page a name of God, verses where the name is recorded, and reflective thoughts. God is a jealous God and that goes along with understanding his Consuming Fire. His jealousy is holy and pure. It is clear in the commandments that I am not to make any other idol or worship any other thing but God alone. He does not share what is completely and rightfully his. And I love how James puts it in chapter 4
1What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passionsa are at war within you?b 2You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. 3You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions. 4You adulterous people!c Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God? Therefore whoever wishes to be a friend of the world makes himself an enemy of God. 5Or do you suppose it is to no purpose that the Scripture says, “He yearns jealously over the spirit that he has made to dwell in us”? 6But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” 7Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
The Spirit within me yearns jealously for my whole attention, affection, worship, devotion, service, and witness. It is my evil desire that leads me to think that I can worship my stuff, self, kids, spouse, church, etc. and still please God.

No, I can't.

God's Consuming Fire is going to come to burn all that up! The things done that are not done through the Name of Jesus will be burned up.
each one’s work will become manifest, for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed by fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each one has done.
At the end of the service yesterday we sang this song Consuming Fire, and I was just blessed by passion of my God for my whole heart. And yours too.